Residency

This phase evokes an odd perception of time 

The desire to pause and fast forward at once 

To feel gripped by the past, the present, and the future 

To fall mercy to two opposing forces, 

A push to press forward, scraping through shift after shift 

To bow my head and lower my gaze 

Eyes flickering only towards the finish line, the end goal

The moment that will mark the journey’s worth.  

But there also lives the pull that roots my soles 

That which forces me to hold its gaze

And think of nothing other than the soul before me 

Or rather, the memory of the soul that once lived before me. 

I set to find peace in this opposition

And to pull from this experience 

A collage of meaning beyond survival, beyond loss 

So I may continue to learn, to grow, and to impact

Written by Amanda