Reflection

Allowing myself time to reflect, I realize the past three years have flown by. One day I was an intern, easily overwhelmed. Now in my final months of residency and will be an attending this summer. The culmination of decades of work on a circuitous path. Am I ready? No. Will I ever feel ready? Doubtful. Will I ever feel the confidence that others seem to have around me? How will I be perceived as a leader? What am I lacking? What more should I be doing? The work never ends. Constantly feeling like I need to climb each rung of a never ending ladder. Where does the ladder lead? When will I finally reach the end? And when I do, does that mean the journey has lost meaning? Will I ever feel satiated? Or is this the path I’m meant for..

Written by Anonymous